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Hard Shoulder

Today I learned a lot about myself.
i learned it not by falling of a motorcycle, not by feeling the anger towards somebody, not by reading silences in people's eyes and not by feeling discomfortable in certain situations.
I learned it by seeing somebody getting out of a car in the wrong place at the wrong moment.
When I shouted her name. And before my eyes another car. In my head an accident.
At that certain moment I knew.
I never declared anybody really insain, and when I called her insain that moment I didn't mean it. I only know what I felt. An immense love and the feeling that it could be gone in seconds.
It could have been anybody else of my friends and I know I would have felt the same.
A canonball of love in my heart.
It is stuck there now. Don't know what to do. I feel lost. In a way.
Give me some hours please...

Posted on July 18, 2003
in Living in Belgium

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