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Futile

Frustra laborant quotquot se calculationibus fatigant pro inventione quadraturae circuli.
(Futile is the labor of those who fatigue themselves with calculations to square the circle.)
by Michael Stifel (1544)

This quote is on Pi.

And has nothing to do with life. And yet.
Yet I has.
For me.

Don't try the impossible.
This is what Michael seems to say.
Almost 960 years ago.

I guess everybody has to figure this one out himself during his own life.
We don't want to learn what others did for us, we want to experience life ourselves.
Feel it, touch it, run with our nose against the wall.
Again and again.

'I want to get somewhere', she said to me,' I have to move forward'.
What is forward?
Where is somewhere?

'A place between nowhere and nowhere.' The best description I've ever found till now (from a Herman Portocarero)

As long we don't get to busy by looking for something so hard we forget to live the moment. As long we don't try to hard to get somewhere and meanwhile forget to enjoy the journey that brings us there.
As long as we don't forget to take the journey itself instead of longing for it.

I have a friend, he plans a journey, but delays it from time to time.
Seems that for some reason he doesn't want to take the risk of the journey itself.

Why? I don't know.

I know that months ago, when I took the plane to an unknown country and unknown people, I was scared to death. That the night before I didn't sleep at all, and needed another friend's arms around me to come through the night.

In my studio above my desk there is this photograph hanging, a strange picture by a broken lomo: 'to the urn it is worth the climbing'.

Fear is the price we pay for adventure...
What they forget to mention is that you also pay for failure.
But it is worth every penny.

For that reason: I do want to square the circle, even if I know in the end it is impossible.
Because the journey of trying to get there will compensate the price of failure.

Posted on November 10, 2003
in Limit of my knowledge

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