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Doubts

Doubts, they got in my head.
Doubts about everything.
But mainly about what I am doing here, if this is what I want.
I don't know and it is enough to keep me awake at night, to trouble my mind.
And the woman that smiles in my ear, and tells me that everything will be ok, doesn't convince me yet.
My mum, hours later, will tell me the same.
And out of nothing this one friend calls.
The kind of friend that you don't hear in months but suddenly calls and the right answers gives without knowing the real question.
And suddenly the knowledge what I already knew: everybody doubts, a 27 year old, and a 40 year one.
Insecurity is a fact. Always.
And slowly the confusion gets out of my head.
The solicitation letter will end in the garbagebin, I know, when I put down the phone.

Posted on August 11, 2004
in Living in Belgium

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